Get Up 10: When Life Knocks You Down Again

It honestly feels like I’ve been sparring with life since I was 9.

More often than not, situations completely out of my control knock me out of balance, and I wake up staggering to find myself. Blood on my lip, black eye and seeing stars - something keeps me lunging back into it. Honestly, sometimes I genuinely wonder what it is.

Despite the fact that I’ll still need to make two new doctor’s appointments next week, I’m seeing some light in this long winding tunnel.

I was doing my makeup earlier and the year just kinda flashed by in my mind. It feels like every time I turn around it’s something new.

Ok Universe, haven’t we built enough character this year? It’s only August.

Somehow I do feel the worst is behind me but then I wonder, is that my Sagittarius optimism or my intuition?

Sometimes it’s hard to tell them apart.

I feel like a Tim Burton character, sewing myself back together.

What goes where? Who am I right now? What’s important? What’s the next best thing I should do?

I’m feeling my way through again.

Sometimes I honestly just want to disappear. Where to? I don’t know, somewhere completely new, slow, quiet and healing. A place where time drips by.

There’s a saying that goes “it’s not about how many times you get knocked down, it’s about how you get back up.”

Luckily I’ve grown up around incredibly resilient people and I get to work with some of the most inspiring people around.

So when I’m not feeling that strong, I at least have some examples to tap into.

They inspire me and remind me, whether the view is looking up or looking out, it’s bound to change. Enjoy it when it’s good and try to enjoy parts of it when it’s less than ideal, while still making room to allow all the complicated feelings to be felt and maybe even understood.

Then when you’re ready, get up. Again.

That’s the plan at least.